Sunday, October 28, 2007
Today was a hectic day.. Or perhaps it's the spate of events for this past week that has made mi very tired..
Finally, had a chance to visit grandpa's grave after so long.. Somehow, tears juz started to fall unwillingly.. We were searching for his urn place & suddenly I juz couldn't rem wad he looked like.. & I was scared.. Hw could I forget someone so impt to mi all of a sudden although he was gone for 11yrs nw? Or perhaps it was the spate of events that made the tears fall so fast & so silent..
Weakness...
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I hate weaknesses.. But wad has happened for the past 1 week will not make mi weaker but will make mi stronger..
Thanks to all hu still cares and
loves mi for hu I am..
Thanks, Juan for bothering to find out more despite mi being cold to u for the past few weeks.. U make mi feel that u truly care.. =)
Thanks, Shanice for showing ur care thru ur msgs although I noe u r gg thru stress in ur work rite nw..
Thanks especially to my baby.. For juz loving mi as I am & being my shining star... I hope to glow for u too..
I shall emerge stronger & be happy no matter wad.. Bcoz I'm alive..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:20 AM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
It's so sad when u die without a family of ur own.. No wives/ husbands.. No children.. A loner all by urself..
Wad will the pple at ur funeral say then?
No laz words? Juz normal rituals?
I wonder what will mine be like..
Prob juz rituals alone or maybe I will get cremated immediately?
I noe someone will prob inscribe on my tombstone.. "Here lies Ms Moody.. I'm glad she will hold her peace forever.."
Though I wasn't close to him.. I felt tt a part of mi is missing..
Words can't describe hw I feel..
I do hate funerals..
Or maybe it's juz the forever goodbyes that I can't face..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:56 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
i had much on my mind.. But after logging on, I dunno wad I should say..
I din noe tt there were many who couldn't accept me for who I am..
I did try to change.. I reali did..
But seems like those closest to mi doesn't allow me to..
Or maybe it's never enough..
I should juz be all alone.. Not worthy to be with anyone..
Tears can't erase the hurt or the pain..
Maybe I should juz disappear...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:07 PM
