Saturday, April 30, 2005
The news hit mi hard. I din know wad to sae. I could only sit ard in shock after Bel hung up. Only after the shock was gone dat the tears start to flow. How could a jovial, vibrant girl juz go like dat? She was only 20 yrs old, de same age as mi, though a mth older...
De make-up artist did not do her justice.. She looked diff from the time we knew each other. Ok, dis is nt abt make-up.. But de fact tt she was young & had a full life in front of her when God took her away after her brave fight against leukemia for 1 yr 4 mths.. I felt guilty for nt contacting her for 2 yrs.. Nt being there 4 her when she needed some1 most.. Regrets, regrets & more regrets.. All these regrets tt have come to nth...
She was some1 hu went all out to do things she wanted.. A daredevil & some1 hu worked to fulfill her dream.. Did things dat pple tot of doing but never went abt doing it.. She did part-time modelling, gt her bike license & joined the New Paper Face contest.. Well, perhaps she had managed to fufill most of her dreams, but she wun b able to get married, have kids & grow old.. I remembered that mi & Bel would always urge her to try the Ms Singapore Universe contest. She wasn't the beautiful sort, juz sexy wif a sweetness in her..
The word "cellulite" would make mi think of the time when we were @ de chalet's swimming pool comparing who has the most of it.. We had also gone to collect our 'O' levels results together in a cab & was delighted dat mi, juan n her will b in SP together... I also rem the time when I was in a bad mood, & she tried to cheer mi up, of which I retorted back, funny mehz? This led to many teasings & laughter after dat.. When she walked into the locker rm, she would greet us by saying: " Hi, bitch.." & she used to call Jun "mother of all bitches." She loved to jest ard & there was dis aura abt her dat u juz can't ignore.. The last time I saw her, she was in sch zipping ard wif her then-bf on the bike without any helmut on.. I din noe that was the last time I would ever c her again...
Memories... Memories... Memories... All this has come to a past & there wouldn't b more memories to add on to it..
I guess I shouldn't question God on y did he take away a young life filled wif promise.. But, I felt anguish.. Y take her away when she had fight a brutal battle & when things seem to look up, only to take her away? Y din I stay in contact wif her? Y? Y? Y? So many 'Y's.... Nth can get her back now... Most imptly, I felt guilty for living..
I said my goodbyes juz nw when I went to her wake.. Wouldn't b able to make it for the procession on Sun... Regrets again... *sigh*
Janis, rest in peace.. U'll always b remembered by us..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:34 AM
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Huiyi insisted dat I blog so dat she could haf sth to read in the middle of de nite.... Lol... My mind is in a blank nw.. Tot of toking abt the infamous casinos dat ALL the media haf been toking abt.. But I guess nt nw.. It's de most tok-to-death topic in town.. Wad's de use since de dice haf already been cast? Wad's de pt of toking abt social problems when de plan is already progressing? Even if there's gonna b 35,000 jobs created bcoz of it, wad use will there b if our city bcums polluted wif crime, vices & suicides? There.. I've made my pt.. Go figure... "Coach Carter" is truly a show to inspire to-be athletes, in particularly basketball players. Wif such a coach, a down player could bcum de best among all. Singapore sure needs pple like him, to make an impact & to motivate team members to work hard together. Perhaps wif more Coach CarterSsss, Singapore could make a difference & an even larger impact than resorting to open a casino to bring Singapore to an even higher heights..
Who nids all de spotlights, limos, blackjacks? I'm contented wif my life in dis peaceful city, wif all my loved ones safe & sound, nt having to wori abt them when they watch a midnite movie.. But all dis will change in prob 5-10 yrs time.. Or maybe nt... Guess we will haf to just wait & see...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
3:23 AM
Monday, April 11, 2005
Before my internet crashes on mi, juz tot to create an entry in my long-obsolete blog.
I was rudely woken by sth massive clanging against my window grille yest morning. I opened my sleepy eyes to dis big, black thing flying swiftly, though quite awkwardly into my room, stopping juz right at the corner between my closed door & de wall. @ dis pt, I haf to admit dat I scared out of my wits, coz though I couldn't c without my glasses, it doesn't take much to noe that that black thing was huge by the way it was fluttering it wings wildly.
Thank God for handphones, coz I immediately called my bro to get my dad to come in to help mi. The only thing I could do was to hide behind a pathetic blanket, which i haf to admit it doen't provide much protection. Dad came in awhile later only to find the bird gone. Given that the bird was gone, & no witnesses ard, dad tot dat I was dreaming. I wish I could believe his words, but I could be veri sure dat I saw it flying in despite mi being half blind. I was a lil' traumatised by this that I could not slp, my ears keep listening for the flutter of wings. Wad makes mi flabberglasted was dat hw it got into my room, with the window grilles & the fact that there are humans inside, though all were still slping.
You might be wondering hw did I derive that it was a bird, although I was half blind. I can only think it a crow, since there r alot flying ard my vicinity, y it flew so high & alone, I dunno. Well... guess let's juz leave it @ dat... Hehe..
Oh ya, watched Swing Girls laz nite @ Woodlands & realise that the main actor in the movie resembles some1. Tot dat it was Greg. Dunno correct not. For those who noe him can go watch the movie or c the poster k? Although the main purpose is not to go c his look-alike la.. The movie was a lil' draggy in the beginning, but after the plot progresses, it was quite entertaining & it makes u feel like picking up piano lessons or even a sax to play jazz music.
That's all for now.. Ying & Carol, I'm the mc queen this week coz doc gave mi 2 days mc.. Hehe.. So will be hm on mon & tues. Call mi if u guys r bored k? Hehe.. That's all for now... Till then..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:50 PM
