Monday, May 31, 2004
Hmm... Feel so frustrated nw... N a lil' unbalanced? Hmm.. Probably I'm juz nt understanding enuff.. I tried le.. Reali did.. But I guess I din tried hard enuff? My temper still overruled wad my heart n mind wans n think..
I guess it's oni when u gif ur 100% 2 de one u love, oni den u r more proned n subjected 2 heartbreaks, heartaches, hurts n pain.. It's juz difficult 2 fathom hw izzit dat even when human experience hurt n pain bcoz of love, they could still subject themselves 2 de whole process again.. Dis logic sometimes profounds mi.. Though I'm oso human, n like others, I'm oso subjected 2 all dis.. But I guess it's oni when there's still a glimmer of hope dat pple will still dare 2 love.. N probably LOVE is still de greatest thing of all ba..
Woke up early todae. Slept like oni 6 hrs.. Din slp well @ all.. Juz felt dat sth is amiss.. De feeling is juz like u wan 2 wake up 2 find sth, but u haf no idea wad dat thing is.. U FEEL LOST.. Went swimming wif Ying n Juan.. 3 zombies walking n swimming.. A feat I would sae 2 slp lil' hrs but haf de energy 2 actually go swimming.. After swimming one or two laps, both of dem decided they haf enuff.. (as usual..) So I'm left 2 my own devices..
Went back hm 2 makan.. Mum's cooking is still de best. Den went 2 mit Toot wif his pretty fren.. If I'm a guy, I think she's de kind dat I would go after manz, based on 1st impressions la.. Den acc toot go mit his mum.. While waiting 4 him 2 pay his bills, mi n ying feel so awkward.. Esp mi.. Haha.. Think she's juz coming up wif topics 2 do away wif de awkwardness..
Den went 2 library.. N Ying actually borrowed a book 2 read!! LOL.. Toot n I was disturbing her all de way.. Keke.. Den went 2 Starbucks 2 drink my fav drink AGAIN.. =P
Came back hm 4 awhile den went out again 2 mit Sam.. Left Ying @ my place alone.. Tok 2 her a lil'.. Hmm.. Haf absolutely no idea wad 2 do wif my life nw.. NIE has officially rejected mi though I've expected dat long ago..
Feel a lil' apprehension.. A lil' sick.. A lil' frustrated.. Heart feel 'men men' de.. Eyes r drooping dwn.. Mind is nt working well.. In abt 6 hrs, toot is gonna fly off 2 Taiwan le.. Leaving 2 women waiting 4 him.. It's up 2 any1's guess, hu he'll choose ultimately ba.. (Feels like those teenage romance drama sia.. Keke..)
Gonna go slp soon... Life is boring!!! Duh... Gonna go sch tmr collect log book, den go buy yi's prezzie, n den go off 2 gan ma's place 4 steamboat.. Feel like slping 4eva, den probably reality wouldn't b a hit...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
9:01 PM
Saturday, May 29, 2004
I'm back blogging again.. Can c hw bored n sian I m rite? Gt back @ abt 10 plus from Toot's 21st Bdae party.. Bought 1 btl of red, n white 4 him. While waitin 4 Carol, mi n Hy went Starbucks 2 drink my fav drink.. Den went 2 mit Ying n JL 2 take cab 2 toot's place.
When we reached there, felt as though we stick out like a sore thumb coz we were de smallest grp n we din noe de rest of de pple. So we juz stood there, toking amongst ourselves. It din help dat Toot wasn't free 2 'entertain' us coz he was bz wif his army buddies, his family members n of coz his gf.. Hmm..
Finally gt 2 look @ my sec sch le.. Seems like de renovation has been gg on like 4eva.. After dilly dallying 4 some time, we decided 2 go after he cut his cake coz we couldn't stand juz standing there.. Still rem dat our grp used 2 b quite huge de, sadly, frens will grow apart after some time.. N it oso seems like time pass quite fast too.. Coz it seems like it was oni yesterday dat we helped him celebrate his Bdae @ Pasir Ris Park..
Walked all de way 2 de bus stop.. Made mi think of laz time where mi, Sam, Lee Joo, Sophia n Juan.. It oso made mi think of him, of laz time.. Rem during sec 3, we were reali close, often toking till wee hrs n having 2 wake up early in de morning 2 go 2 sch. Den somehow, due 2 a misunderstanding dat he liked another ger, we grew apart. Thinking back, we were reali childish, @ least my thinking was childish coz I din bother 2 ask him abt de misunderstanding, if nt we might haf been together 4 a long time le.. But den again, wif my hot temper n childishness den, I doubt we would b together 4 long.. Fate juz kips tempting us.. N I guess if u r reali meant 2 b together, u would b.. Which after 4 yrs, we finally gt 2gether le, after 2 missed chances.. Misunderstandings again n again..
Ger, I juz want 2 tell u dis, if he's meant 2 b ur's, he would b, no matter wad perils u would go thru 2 get together, juz like mi n Alex.. So if he's ur's, den there's no way 2 avoid it.. But if he's nt, guess u should slowly let go le.. If u r fated 2 b together, u'll b together ultimately de... Think on de bright side..
Hmm.. Thinking back abt de past makes mi miss him even more le.. Besides, he din msg nor call mi since his sis took his line.. *sigh* Hopefully, he's alrite n is enjoying himself there liaoz...
*Zhi you dang ni shi qu le, ni cai hui wen xi...*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:54 PM
Woo hoo peeps.. I'm back from a trip 2 Genting.. No big deal u would sae, coz it's oni within de region. BUT it's been ages since I went a trip.. Time seems 2 pass so fast though..
Day 1
Took de nite bus. Was totally wide awake most of de time during de bus trip. Felt reali excited somehow.. On de way up, de view from de bottom 2 de top was spectecular. N I was reali glad dat I din fall aslp n caught de sights. Reached de cable car station @ like abt 4am in de morning. Was feeling a lil' grouchy due 2 lack of slp. N it din help 1 single bit when 1 of de taxi driver there kip trying 2 get us take his cab. Well, I'm glad 4 once dat my stubbornness finally wore him off. We took de old cable car where they'll squeeze huge number of pple. So was kinda scared. De paranoid mi started having tots abt de cable snapping etc etc.. It was pitch dark outside, though lights could still b seen in de distance. Dark shadows of de rainforest could b seen illuminated outside. Spend some time @ Starbucks slacking away. De hot choc juz made mi feel like vomiting, which I can't explain y though it could b due 2 de wee hrs n of coz de bus ride winding up n dwn.
Saw de sunrise from de top of de mountain. Gosh, de view was spectacular n manificient. It juz reminds us dat life itself is beautiful.
After some reali slacking on our part 4 like abt 7 hrs, we finally book in, after some white lies told by Alex.. Though I dun reali condone lies, but I guess sometimes lies could well b forgiven. =P Went 2 slp once we reached our rooms. Slept reali well, too well in fact dat bcoz of mi, we missed out on Snow City, where we were supposed 2 mit Juan, Sandra, JinHao, Sort Lin, Kaiying n Yanling. But guess we din reali miss dat much though, coz it din seem DAT fun though.. Coz it was juz man made snow, wif oni 1 snow slide.
Went 4 some rides indoors, since it was raining pretty heavily. Had a wild time playing de bumper cars though. Went 4 dinner @ Kenny Rogers. De portion was smaller den de ones we haf in S'pore, but overall, it was still quite yummy. Went 4 shopping where he bought an adorable pig 4 mi.. N he even wanted 2 get a winnie de pooh piglet 4 mi if nt 4 de fact there was a stain on de feet.. Feel like a small kid outta sudden n so loved. Made a wax mould out of our hands. De wax was scalding hot but it was fun n a lil' hilarious bcoz de silly mi actually believed dat I was supposed 2 hold de mould wif my hand in it n walk ard. After some rides @ de Ferris Wheel, somemore bumper car rides n some other rides which I dunno wad it is, we went back 2 our rooms.
Met @ abt 12 plus 2 go 2 Starbucks. De tuna tom yam puff was quite nice.. N after some crap toking n jokes on Juan n Ying, by Jinhao no less, we crawled back tiredly back 2 our rooms.
Day 2
Was supposed 2 go 4 breakfast, N 2 make use of de facilities by de hotel, namely de swimming pool, but de lazy mi couldn't wake up.. Felt a lil' bad though. Went 2 KTV instead. It sux totally. De system was reali haywire, de drinks limited, but de fish & Chips was nice though, counting de fact dat he kip stealing my fries from my plate..
After dat went shopping AGAIN.. Weather sux again coz it was raining cats n dogs, limiting us 2 indoors. I would love 2 go play de rides outdoors, but weather does nt permits us 2.. Went 4 Haunted Adventures, n oso de Ripley's believe it or not. Ripley's was reali an experience coz in it, u could feel all de bizarre things n pple, leaving it 2 u 2 believe it or nt. Some of it was kinda eerie too.. After dat went 2 de Haunted Adventure, it was kinda lame though scary @ de same time, coz u dunno wad 2 expect esp in de dark.
Went back 2 our rooms while Juan, Sandra n Ying came by my room 2 play Heart Attack n TaiDee.. Had a fun time playing dat we were a lil' lazy 2 go out. Mi n Alex were gg 2 watch a movie, while de rest were gg clubbing @ Cloud 9. Watch de "Day after Tmr". A brilliant movie, coz it depicts wad would happen if we dun pull our socks together if we do not help preserve de environment. De movie was quite exciting, leaving u breatheless as de leads brave de weather n fight 4 their lives, n de ones they love. A truly touching movie which I think dat everyone should watch @ least once.
Day 3
Was able 2 wake up on time, though wif a lil' slacking on de bed on my part. But we managed 2 haf breakfast. 4 a 5 star hotel standard, it wasn't dat gr8 @ all. Went 2 de Gallery Observatories @ de top of our hotel, reminds mi of Sentosa's Sky Tower, though compared 2 dat, dis was massive. De scenery was reali breathtaking. N we took a couple of pics.
After somemore slacking, we finally check out @ abt 12 noon. Went 2 haf lunch @ de foodcourt. He tried Stonegrill where pieces of food r placed on a type of stone where u'll nid 2 cook it over de hot stone. It was delicious, n if I wasn't feeling oozy, I would haf tried it.
After which, we finally took de skyway dwn. It was diff from de one we took up. Dis ride was longer, n if I rem correctly, it's abt 34 km long. Nevertheless, I was bewildered by de view dat u can c as u travel dwn. De rainforest was real huge, it juz stretches miles n miles, n de blend btwn de greeneries n de blue sky was reali breathtaking. Words can't describe it.
Took de bus after purchasing some goodies. While walking 2 look 4 a seat, a lady juz fall beside us. Was kinda in shock coz she was bleeding @ de forehead. Din noe wad 2 do 2 help her though. Thankfully, her fren came 2 help her out. After some waiting, de bus finally came. N someone juz took our seats wifout our consent. N guess wad, when Alex was toking 2 de couple, they were like staring @ him speechless, looking like complete idiots. I mean if u reali wan 2 sit together wif ur kids, @ least open up de bloody mouth n sae. It looks as though it's our fault which it is not. Thankfully, an old couple decided 2 switch seats 4 de single row seats, 4 wad reason, I dunno.. De rest of de trip was wifout much incident, though a stupid auntie kips nagging abt lowering chairs, which we HaVEN even done it, n we juz turned a deaf ear towards it. Darnz.. Wad's wrong wif all dis aunties? Alex was nice enuff 2 ask 4 permission, while de rest of de pple haf already lowered their chairs wifout a word. Hmph..
Reached back in S'pore @ abt 10 plus, n feeling reali restless n tired, so we took a cab hm. Haf a late dinner. Guess I'm gonna grow real fat wif all dis late nite supper n dinners. *Zinch*
Gonna go 4 Toot's bdae soon. Hmm... Feel reali sian nw, coz he's gone 2 Malaysia, wif no notice 2 attend his aunt's wedding.. *sigh* Guess haf been too used 2 having him ard mi 4 de past 2 weeks, n I noe if I ask him nt 2 go, I would reali b selfish.. Guess dis would b best since he's gonna b away 4 3 weeks 4 NS, so nw is oni a training ba...
*Missing u...*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
4:04 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Went 2 de zoo todae wif my darling, his mum, his 2 lil' sis, Qi n Ming, his lil' cousin, Fei.. Got free admission, courtesy of Farid..
De plan was initially postponed as it was raining heavily when I woke up. But de weather was abit haywire, since 1 moment it was raining heavily, de other moment, de sun was shining brightly. N so all of us took his uncle vehicle n we were on our way there.
Upon reaching, I felt a sense of familiarity since it's been more den a mth I've stepped in dat place, when I've been gg 2 dat place everydae 2 work.
De kids were reali well trained, though a tad talkative, but they listened 2 de adults. N kids being kids, asked lotsa ques. Felt older when I'm wif dem, but it has oso gave mi a feeling where being innocent is actually a blessing.
Watched de Elephant show, n walked most of de places, although we missed a small part of it since we din haf much time 2 walk ard (we reached abt 2).
After dat, went 2 watch "Laws of Attraction". Not a reali nice movie though. Lack climax, humor (although it induced some laughter in lil' parts here n there). Unless u dun haf anything else 2 watch, PLEASE DON'T WATCH IT..
Perhaps, dis criticism is oso due 2 my mood since halfway thru, we quarrelled, as he thinks, over a damn bloody sausage. Yupz, probably it's bcoz I haf a 2 dimension thinking n NOT 3 dimension thinking. But, firstly, please DO NOT ASSUME.. Bcoz it's nt neccessary de surface things dat will get a ger upset. Think twice, thrice, or even 4 times, b4 u make any conclusion. Probably, dis is as much of my own fault, as it is your's. N maybe wad u r doing, u feel dat u r rite. While wad I'm doing, I think dat I'm rite. De pt is neither of us reali do understand each other dat well yet 2 noe exactly wad de other is doing, n hence dis misunderstanding. Lastly, GERS r human beings hu r absolutely nt ez 2 understand, insrutable.. Even I, myself, a ger does not exactly phantom wad goes on in de complex mind of a female, myself included. So, juz leave mi alone 4 nw, till everything would bcum clearer 2 mi...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:20 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Had a long dae todae. Woke up late coz it was raining in de morning.. Boy.. My life is juz simply so gd nw.. N lazy too.. If dis continues on, I'm nt gonna get a job.. Hehe..
Went 2 haf lunch @ 925.. Ate my fav chix rice.. Den went 2 fish shop 2 look @ de fishes. Felt a lil' heart pain 4 him coz despite his insisting dat de reason 4 dropping his hobby of fish rearing is bcoz he's gonna go NS soon, I noe dat it's oso bcoz of mi. Feel guilty n burden as a result. I would prefer 2 c u hapi n enjoy sth dat u do.. Den kip yearning yet never haf it.. Haiz..
Went back hm n juz laze ard since de interview was cxl.. Ger, probably bcoz of de way I type, but I'm nt angry wif u.. Juz a lil' frustrated bcoz of de constant changing of time. Hope u understand.. Den went on 2 haf dinner @ Mac.. Saw Azura.. Hehe.. Den went 2 Shop N Save 2 look 4 my mum.. Bought some food 2 cook lunch tmr.. Life is juz simply so good..
♥ the world will turn WILD.
12:54 AM
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
De lazy mi went 4 a jog todae. As expected, I couldn't jog more den 2 rounds. Felt so embarassed.. Turned out de jogging trip was a mistake. Ended up he couldn't continue 2 jog bocz of mi..
After dat, dilly dally @ hm 4 quite sometime b4 gg 2 his place. Yupz.. Finally went 2 his place le.. Haha.. It wasn't dat bad reali considering it was oni his mum n sis. Gosh.. Simply lurve his younger sis eyelashes. Longer den his.. Hmm... I think I've fallen in love wif his sis le.. Hehe..
After dat went 2 town 2 look 4 swimsuit n juz simply chill out as he calls it.. Went 2 de starbucks 2 drink my fav drink.. Yummy.. Gonna enjoy it while de stock laz.. It's absoluely yummy, refreshing n taste reali nice 4 a sweet tooth like mi.. It's none other den.... *drumrolls...* CARAMEL COFFEE JELLY.. (Nw, nw.. Look hu is like making advertisement 4 Starbucks n being lame @ de same time.. *rolls eyes*)
Got my swimsuit although it's nt de type n color dat I wan but it will do as well.. If nt lata, some1 threaten nt 2 let mi go swim if I wear bikini.. *winks*
Den went on 2 Carrefour since being de totful him rem dat my mum wanted black socks.. Haiz.. Feel so shi pai.. He can rem, yet I can't.. Wad kinda daughter m I manz.. We ended up buying 2 pairs of socks AND an air cooler since it was on discount. Being de generous him offered 2 paid half. In de end, he paid more den half AND paid 4 cab fare.. Darnz.. Felt so bad.. Haiz.. Made him waste money.. Gonna figure out some ways 2 pay him back.. Hehe.. *wide grins*
Gonna go slp soon.. Coz it's swimming time tmr.. Wee.. It's been ages since I've stepped in2 a pool.. Can't wait.. Hopefully, I'll fare beta in de water den on solid ground... Nitez...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
11:27 PM
Monday, May 17, 2004
I'm supposed 2 start posting on dis blog on 16th May, signalling another chapter of my life.. But being de lazy mi, I've put off doing it, or rather, I've been rather bz since dat special some1 in my life has come back.
A sneak view of wad haf I been doing since 13th May...
13th May - Grad Ball
It was fun looking @ pple dressing up, esp pple dat we r used 2 seeing dem wearing street clothes, of coz, some were well.. overexaggerating in their dress sense. But we had a whale of a time though de party truely started oni after every1 left, n we continued 2 dance our way till abt 1am in de morning. Jozie, Judy, Amber were reali wild, n Dr Shay even danced wif us.
14th May - Juz another dae
Laz dae @ purchasing dept. Both mi n Judy were struggling hard 2 stay awake since we barely had a few hrs slp. Felt a teeny weeny bit of sadness since I've been wking there 4 like 3 weeks liaoz.. But I'm hapi 4 Judy coz she's gotten herself a fulltime.
15th May - Countdown
Went 2 wk @ 4p.m. Hopefully dis is de laz time I'm gonna wk @ Bqt coz I think it's reali time dat I move on. Surprise, surprise, surprise.. Coz Ganesan actually let mi wk till 2am. Was counting down all de way, n kena scolded by ying n hy sae mi gila. Haiz.. But felt a lil' guilty though, coz I was late in fetching him. De scene whereby I met him wasn't wad I had in mind, neither did he. Went back wif his dad n sis.
It never feel so rite 2 b rite by his side, n thru dis 3 mths, I guess it's been sort of a minor test 2 test whether r we reali 4 each other or nt. Of coz, we would haf our tiffs n quarrels, our lil' insecurities, but ultimately, I guess de love is still there, nt less, but more perhaps..
Haf been spending time wif him since yest, went 2 watch movies both yest n todae. Watched 50 1st date n van helsing todae. Van Helsing is kinda like a blockbuster, but I simply like it coz it was reali cool, n de crew was fabulous, nt 2 mention de eye candies on de de screen.
Never felt more hapi den dis past few daes... N I'm reali satisfied wif wad I haf nw. I guess dis is a feeling dat all of us will haf @ 1 pt of time or another, whereby u noe dat dis is de person dat u wish 2 spend de rest of ur life wif...
*Dun wait b4 it's too late... Grab de oppurtunity while u should..*
♥ the world will turn WILD.
10:50 PM
