Monday, February 21, 2005
The day started off sunny n shiny, although some1 woke mi up wif a phone call (u noe hu u r)... I love weekends.. I was actually looking forward to todae coz I'll b able to c him... Hehe.. Can't figure out hw could I miss some1 so much though we've nt met for only 1 dae.. Hehe..
Ying n Carol came over to my place. They were supposed to slp but we while our time away watching tv. Went over to Juan's place after dat.. Had steamboat n veg curry.. Her mum's cooking is gr8, though i love my parents' cooking the most... Hehe.. After fufilling our stomachs, we went to juan's com rm, dat's where all de fun (or pain) begun.. We started off wif taidee, den it was heart attack. Had a good time screaming juz for effect. Think we were reali noisy n rowdy.. Den came ying's "great" idea to play 'da shi teng, ma shi ai"... In de end she was de one suffering de most from it.. Serves her right.. Keke..
Finally went to de UK funfair le... BIG mistake... Juan, Huat, Ying, Carol, Hendry, Junli, mi n darling had absolutely no idea wad was in store 4 us... More for huat n carol though... Hehe.. Walked ard 1st to determine wad rides we were interested in.. In de end, both mi n darling chose MegaDrop (nt sure abt de name) and Air Force 1.
Went for MegaDrop wif ying, junli, huat, hendry n darling... It was a nightmare.. It's de infamous 10-storey drop from the top.. Ya, u might think it's nth coz in Aussie n other countries, they haf higher ones.. But it was a horrible experience for mi.. I was feeling ok, though a tad nervous while ascending... But halfway thru it, I panicked. My palms turned sweaty n I could c dat de drop down would b diff from the roller coaster kinda feeling.. Suddenly, I wished dat I was on the ground wif juan n carol.. Too late for dat though.. Den came de "expecting feeling but it did not happened yet, though it'll b soon"... Darnz... Hw could I explain the fall dwn? Hmz.. I juz knew dat I couldn't open my eyes, n everything juz bcame silent.. It felt as though I was gg 2 die n being oblivious to the surroundings.. Den it was over.. or so i tot.. Bad news.. We begun again wif de 2nd ascend.. I panicked even more. @ dat moment I tot I could pee in my shorts, which i promptly told him n junli.. Dis time though, when we went dwn, I din spare any scream from my mouth.. I screamed all de way dwn, which was prob only 60 secs? It felt like forever though... My fingers were actually shivering when I came dwn, n I noe dat I'll prob haf nightmares abt it...
Juan n Huat went den 4 their ride, a ride which juz spin round n round until it bcums a blur. Couldn't even point out where they were. After it stopped, we couldn't find dem @ all.. It was only until hendry or darling went over dat we realised sth was wrong.. Huat's face was pale, n juan was nt feeling dat gr8 herself too.. After making sure they r ok, went 2 our 2nd ride, thinking dat after they rest they would feel beta, but we were wrong...
Air Force 1 is a combination of spins n height. de 1st time u look @ it, u wouldn't think it
s scary. It seem fun actually. But perhaps, I still had nt yet recover from de previous ride, I was a lil' apprehensive abt it.. Went 2 take de ride eventually.. It wasn't dat bad though it was real fast, n when u were gg dwn, wif ur face facing de ground, u feel as though ur neck was breaking. It doesn't help much when u kip ur eyes wide open n looking ard while de ride was gg on.. I closed my eyes n basically screamed de whole time it was up in de air.. I opened my eyes n peeped every now n den.. It was a blur... wif thousand of lights ard..
Btwn de 2 rides, I enjoyed de 2nd 1 more, prob I'm nt much of a height person.. Ok, back to the story.. After leaving de rides, we couldn't c juan n huat anywhere. So hendry called dem. Found dem @ de medic area. Huat seemed worse. Was a lil' worried 4 him n juan.. Guess de ride was too much 4 dem. Thank God I din take dat ride.. Carol was ok @ 1st, but slowly she bcame a lil' green too.. Ying seem dazed, prob due to lack of slp though.. I think out of 8 of us, only darling, mi n hendry was nt affected. In de end, due to this outing, most of us r nt gg 2 wk tmr, wif de exception of juan n hendry.. Darling n I had applied 4 leave tmr long b4 though.. So nw we've gt more co. LOL...
Throat feels a lil' squeaky nw.. Think it's prob due to screaming too much, de whole day thru. Hope I'll haf voice 4 tmr's interview though.. It's my 2nd try, so wish mi luck.. Reali hope to get into it.. But we shall juz wait n c ba.. Gotta go slp soon... Nitez pple...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
2:03 AM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
I'm so hungry.. My stomach kips churning, making all the rumbling sound... Should haf taken Annie's offer to go haf nasi lemak @ dat infamous shop in yishun.. Sianz... Mi so ke lian... Nt like some1 gt pple fetch her for supper... Haha.. Oops.. Since when had I started on sel-pitying? Hmz.. Guess the hunger is getting to mi..
I'm bored the whole day thru.. Seems like, or feels like sth is missing... Walked to Nancy's place todae n basically spent the whole day rotting @ her hse.. Had sushi 4 brunch which her mum made.. Was pleasantly surprised to find bak kwa in it though... Her rabbit, pepper was absolutely cute n cuddly though.. Looks like a furball when she curls up... Watched laz episode of 'Huan Zhu Ge Ge' which was reali draggy n kinda stupid.. It's like a typical sort of never-ending soap opera, completed wif all de drama n sob-sob scenes. N we had a gd luff discussing it... Keke... Unknowingly, 6p.m came quickly... N while Nancy was helping mi epilate my leg hair, (which was a horrible experience, coz those who noe mi should noe I'm a hairy person) the mins was ticking away... Had to rush to mit ying @ 925 for dinner... Walk super-duper fast.. Think de uncles in de shops muz b wondering y dis girl is walking so damn fast... Keke... Seems like I did plenty of leg work today..
Went 4 facial.. I suppose today is de 1st time (when ying n mi go together) dat we r early.. Coz we took a cab dwn... Blew a cool 65 bucks on a facial.. But too bad.. Who ask mi to b so ai mei?? Haiz.. Nw thinking back abit heart pain.. N she actually ask mi to take course.. Still considering.. It's suppose to b gd 4 my skin... Women r juz so vain... Although some guys r too
(otherwise known as metrosexuals...) Argh!!! My stomach is actually growling nw... A pity darling is in camp, if nt can drag him to go supper wif mi...
I miss my baby...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:05 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
Feel so disappointed n so alone.... My stomach aches n I feel so faint from nt eating... Dun haf any apetite @ all.. Was supposed to go River Hongbao but din go laz min though we had already stepped out of the hse n had gone to the coffeeshop to haf dinner b4 heading for it..
While queuing up 4 food, I was seized by fatigue, n felt faint, esp there were so many pple ard mi.. My knees grew weak, n there was a sick feeling in my stomach.. I broke out in cold sweat.. But seeing dat it was my turn soon, I beared wif it.. Upon reaching my seat, I couldn't hold it any longer, my stomach hurts like hell dat I was oblivious to the surrounding despite my disheveled look. Mum tried to get mi to eat the bowl of fish soup but I juz couldn't stomach it. In the end, dad acc mi hm while mum went 2 Northpoint. I was so weak that I juz kept sweating n had to lean to my dad for strength.. N all I could think of was him.. Hw nice it would b if he could b here.. The one I could depend on....
**Xiang hui dao guo qu...** Feel so disappointed.... Perhaps things r juz nt like it's used to be le...
♥ the world will turn WILD.
1:14 AM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
My bones ached, my eyes swollen from too much slp... Have been rotting @ hm for this whole full dae, while the rest goes ard on their visitation. I've done most of the necessary visitation yest, have heard the incessant chatters, seen so much food laying ard, waiting for pple to finish it up or end up having to be dumped into the dumpster n join the rest from many hseholds. Have touched the many red packets passing hands, smelled the freshly minted notes n not to mention seen piles n piles of goodies wif red caps on drawing ur attn to it unknowingly.
CNY is supposed to b a joyous celebration, a tradition held dear by the elders. But it seems dat recently, or perhaps many yrs b4, it has becum a celebration of waste n also juz a routine dat many of us follows without knowing a specific significance to it. Will this tradition fade away over time, leaving only the fundemental routine of giving ang baos, eating pineapple rolls, n playing blackjack?
To mi, CNY is yet another dae. I'm nt as excited as when I was young, playing wif all my lil' cousins, oblivious to the world and their problems. Well, I suppose, CNY is a reason for many to put their differences aside n gather together, no matter hw fake it might b... The affair of CNY has faded to a yearly visit, miting my aunt n uncles once a yr while they ask wad haf u been doing 4 de past 1 yr, n thereafter fade back to their own life, until the next yr...... This yr might b de worst yr yet as I've stepped 1 foot into the realm of the adult world. My mit once a yr godma introduced mi to her products, thinking back this could b the most words she haf said to mi. Hmz... Guess I'm juz too critical. But it juz bothers mi of hw open I am nw 2 the troubles of the adults. i.e. my uncle's stay back from the hospice, my godma introducing mi the products, my godpa's
(deceased) wife n son looking @ us wif sadness in their eyes while we left their hse, wif pple still inside gambling n toking, oblivious to them..
*sigh*
Guess my tots r juz all jumbled up, followed by the restlessness in mi... Gonna go wif my family to River Hongbao later, to juz soak up wadeva festive mood there is... Hopefully baby will b back by the time we r thru. Missed him so much... Wished I could haf juz gone wif him n perhaps then I could blind to everything I c, yet powerless to help... Hopefully things will work out for every1, every1 will live happily ever after... =)
Happy Chinese New Yr, everyone... N may things run smoothly for this whole yr round.
I miss him... May he haf a safe trip back....
**Note: The above was written when the blogger is suffering from PMS... Do not take anything to heart..**
♥ the world will turn WILD.
5:16 PM
